Humpty Dumpty

Just about everyone knows the story of Humpty Dumpty.

“Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall,
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall;
All the King’s horses and all the King’s men 
Couldn’t put Humpty together again.”

What a wonderfully simple nursery rhyme that teaches us a valuable lesson about our God – when we fall, crack, and break, there is no measure of repair that man can provide that puts us together. The restoring, the renewal, the rejuvenation that is needed during our falls, our breaks, our cracks comes from God alone. There is nothing we endure here on Earth that is too great for our God. There is no situation, no circumstance, no person that God is unable to restore. 

A little over a year ago, I was broken; at one of the lowest points in my life. My confidence was shattered, my faith was in man and not God and my life was in chaos. I was struggling to love myself again; to believe in my value and worth. I struggled to look in the mirror – I couldn’t physically stand to see my reflection. I woke up each morning and put on a mask of “having it together” for my children, my family, my friends and colleagues. Inevitably, the mask skewed and one day, came off. I broke down in front of my kids and in that moment, my children reacted with compassion and comfort far beyond their years. They imparted some of their strength (which admittedly, I’d never noticed before) in me. That moment filled with their hugs, their soft voices telling me they loved me and we’d be okay is something I’ll never forget. It was a defining moment. I’d fallen apart and all my pieces were laid out for plain sight. But even in my broken state, the people that loved me most still saw the worth in those pieces. Their warm bodies and small arms protectively wrapped around the scattered remnants of who I was encouraging me to keep going because “we’d be okay”. I know God was in that moment that night. It was His embrace that comforted me through the children He gave me. How beautiful – the children He gave me are the children He used to comfort His child. I was not put back together that night. But, God put in me the understanding He was with me, keeping me and I embraced His promise that He would finish the work He started. Maybe I’ll believe differently one day but as of now, I don’t think we are ever complete in this life. We are constantly being worked on because His perfect creation of us is only realized when we are finally in His presence. Until then, we fall and God restores us not out of obligation but out of unconditional love. I hope Humpty Dumpty finally realized his faith did not belong in a king who was man and instead, called out for restoration from a Father with intimate, infinite knowledge of His creation. 

I pray that each of us calls out to God in our moments of greatest despair. When we’ve fallen and our pieces are everywhere, we look to He that calls us all by name (Isaiah 40:26) and knows the completed puzzle. The One who is closest to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18) and wants the burden of your pain, your suffering, your sin and knows He can bear it – He gave His Son to finish it! 

Whatever you’ve done, wherever you are, God still loves you. All we ever have to do is open the door…